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So today is the first day of Eating Disorders Awareness Week.

Beat (http://www.b-eat.co.uk/) is the leading UK charity for people with eating disorders and their families. Beat is the working name of the Eating Disorders Association, who continue to build on the strong foundations of the past 20 years of work.

Eating disorders are a serious mental illness affecting 1.6 million people in the UK. Beat provides helplines for adults and young people, online support and a UK-wide network of self-help groups to help people beat their eating disorder.

Beat's vision is simple: Eating Disorders will be Beaten.

117/365: 1998-1999

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Saturday, 20 September 2008.

40 Years in 40 Days view the entire set
An examination and remembrance of a life at 40.

For the 40 days leading up to my 40th birthday, I intend to use my 365 Days project to document and remember my life and lay bare what defines me. 40 years, 40 qualities, 40 days.

Year 31: 1998-1999

I spent the week of Thanksgiving 1998 in Hawaii. Northwestern was playing Hawaii the following Saturday, so I went with my friend Tom and his new bride, Lavinia. I felt a bit third-wheel-ish, but I didn't let it bother me much. I mean, I wasn't passing up a trip to Hawaii just to avoid a small amount of social awkwardness. The week proved to be fantastic. We rented a convertible and drove all around Oahu, hitting most of the major spots: Punch Bowl, Pearl Harbor, Diamondhead, etc.... all well worth seeing. Then, while Tom and Lavinia spent some time at the beach, I did some exploring on my own. I could never understand the appeal of lying around on the sand on vacation, when I could just as well do that at home. I'd rather be out seeing things I can't see elsewhere. I bought a puddle jumper ticket over to the big island, and signed up for a van tour. We circled the entire island, and I got to jump around on some lava - much better than a beach. On Thanksgiving day, we cooked a turkey in the kitchen of the condo we had rented for the week. We put pineapple slices on top, and they burned to a charred, unrecognizable crisp, so we laughed, snapped a lot of photos, and threw them out. It was great fun.

I wished Dave had been there. I think he would have enjoyed it, but when I asked him about it while I was in the planning stages of the trip, he said he wasn't interested in going. I wanted to think it was because he wasn't interested in the football game we were using as our excuse to go, but I had a nagging suspicion that it was because he didn't want to commit to plans with me that far out. Our relationship had started to become strange and silent. Where once there had been amusing conversation or comfortable silence, there was now a silence that felt heavy and oppressive, as if we just no longer had anything to talk about. At least part of the problem was that Dave was adamantly opposed to talking about himself. Very early on in our relationship I noticed that I was doing all the talking when it came to subjects like personal histories, family life, hopes, dreams and fears. When I asked him why that was, he said he didn't like to talk about himself, that he felt it was boring. Over the years, of course, I was able to draw a good deal of those things out of him, but it never came naturally to him.

It would be dishonest to blame the silence entirely on Dave, though. The truth is, I had withdrawn inside myself to the point where I'd become a different person. I had begun therapy in 1996 to deal with an eating disorder, but by 1999, it had become painfully apparent that what I really needed to deal with most was the traumatic event from my early childhood. I supplemented my regular therapy with thematic group therapy, and began to delve deeply into the issue. As a result, I became intensely focused inward, and the world outside my head became either faded, or recast as supporting characters for my inner drama. Dave tried his best to be supportive, but my shifting moods and unpredictable anger and sulking frustrated and confused him. At the same time as I was trying to bridge the gap between us and pull him closer, I was also pushing him away. And so the gap grew until I feared it would swallow us up. One morning in April, while we were lying in bed waiting for the day to start, I just said out of the blue, "I can't take the silence anymore." I didn't need to explain what I meant. Dave knew. We started couples counseling the following week.

Initially, counseling seemed to be a magic bullet. We were affectionate, playful, and attentive with each other, and it felt more like our earliest months together. But, when that began to fade, and things got difficult again, our counselor reminded us that there is often a honeymoon period that follows the start of couples counseling because of the sudden renewal of hope. When the reality of the hard work of rebuilding a relationship sets in, that giddiness fades. We struggled. Dave had to fight his natural inclination to clam up, and I had to battle my own fear of being truly honest with him about how broken and scared I was inside. I was afraid that if I really showed him all of the turmoil and ugliness roiling around in my head, he would decide that I was repulsive and not worth the trouble.

While all of this was going on, I was also focused on preparing for grad school. I was taking high-level, reading- and writing-intensive courses. I wanted to build my research and writing skills, but most importantly, I needed to develop the study skills that I had never acquired as a high school and undergraduate student. I knew I would never survive in grad school if I didn't know how to devote my time and energy to it. I spent hours reading and re-reading, outlining and writing, pacing around the house to stretch my legs and shake some hidden idea out of some dark crevice in my mind, all the while trying not to think about the one I loved most in the world slipping away.

Who am I?

I am a product of therapy.

And thank God for that. If you don't need it, the idea of therapy seems absurd and tedious (hell, even if you do need it, sometimes therapy is absurd and tedious). But, if you need therapy, there's just no adequate substitute. For some people there are just going to be times when you need to focus inward. Sometimes that's going exact its own high price on your life, but when you need to go through something, you need to go through it. Some things you just can't circle around.

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Is this a good bucket list so far?

1000 things to do before I die.....
1.Visit all 50 states
2.Read 1,000 books
3.See 1,000 movies
4.Walk on the great wall of china
5.Climb a real real rock wall
6.Visit all 7 continents
7. Ride the fastest roller coaster
8. Sky dive
9. Get married
10. Have kids
11. Go on a cruise
12. See the amazon
13.hold my breath for a minute
14. Learn to juggle
15. Win big in Vegas
16.take a picture pushing the leaning tower Of pisa
17. Be on T.V
18. Scuba dive
19. Boat down the mississippi river
20. Speak 4 languages
21. Be an extra in a movie
22. Be in a flash mob
23. Get my drivers licensee
24. Learn to play an instrument
25. Be in a music video
26. Do a handstand on the ground and walk
27. Invent something
28. Help out at a disaster site
29. Bungee jump
30. Zip line
31. See. Free elephant
32. Eat a scorpion
33. Spend a whole day in bed
34. Finish a 1,000 piece puzzle
35. Visit my cousins in Italy
36. Run a marathon
37. Beat my dad s marathon time
38. Do a iron man (Hawaii )
39. Graduate college
40. Helicopter over grand canyon
41. Ski in Colorado
42. Live on the land for a week ..... Month
43. Get straight a s
44.Use no electricity for a week
45. Finish a rubix cube
46. Surf
47. Build a tree house
48. Do 100 push ups without stopping
49. Be in a protest
50. Make varsity lacrosse
51. Go caving again
52. Hike the edge line in az (spritaul mountain)
52. Lift 200 pounds
53. Do a back flip on a trampoline
54. Meet a president
55. Win concert tickets
56. Hitch hike
57. Go to the dead sea
58. Eat a whole large pizza by myself
59. Look for a treasure chest
60. Take a picture with the new water fountains at Fremont
61. Drive cross country
62. Knit my own shirt
63. Vs a pro in a sport
64. Teepee a house
65. Ride a motorcycle
67. Eat a fish eye
68. Stay awake for 24 hours
69. Get food from a plant I planted
70. Play football in the rain
71. Go skinny dipping
72. Go streaking
73. Sleep on water
74. Break open a coconut with a rock
75. Send a message in a bottle
76. Bob for apples
77. Eat at a 5 star restaurant
78. Blow up a car
79. Get 100 dollars in change
80. Not talk for a full day
81. Be the person to break open the piata
82. Throw a lacrosse ball across the length of the field
83. Go to a super bowl
84. Burn a picture of someone I hate
85. Donate blood
86. Ride a mechanical bull
88. Go to jerry springer
89. See the pyramids
90. Hitch hike
91. Email mr.fennel at age 25 (Tim fennel)
92. Watch the ball drop in NYC
93. See Stonehenge
94. Make a fire from starch
95. Have a solar panel or wind mill
96. Cut down a Christmas tree
97. Do something like ninja warrior
98. Stay off Facebook for two weeks
99. See the northern lights
100. Swim under a real water fall
101. Take a 365 day challenge
102. Make a million dollars
103. Get my braces off
104. Buy a suit
105. Be on survivor or a show like it
106. Stand in four states at once
107. Ride a hot air ballon
108. Swim in all of the great lakes
109. Climb the stairs to the top of the Willis tower
110. Swim the English
111. Go fire walking
112. Go zorbing
113. Watch a rocket launch live
114. Have a food fight
115. Volunteer at a soup kitchen
116. Quit a job
117. Go to a place and ask for the use
118. White water rafting
119. Make a difference in at least one persons life
120. Watch turtles hatch and run for the sea
121. Be a vegetarian for a year
122. Go to the olpymics watch or be in them
123. Kiss a stranger on the street
124. Touch an iceberg
125. Change a babies diaper
126. Watch a meteor shower
127. Midnight walk on the beach
128. Buy a stranger a meal at a restaurant
129.

What else can I add ? Thanks

Answer :
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